of blood, sweat and tears

rawr! field camp is finally over!

the worst shit is indeed the best shit because when u know you have accomplished the toughest shit, you'll remember those times when you grow older. like for example, my rugby days. if i didnt give my all, i wouldnt be proud of it at all. field camp made me realise that in life, theres always something for us to bring back as memories, and thats when u really work hard for it; blood, sweat and tears.

and yes. i cried like a baby. well most of us did. i've talked to some of my platoon and company mates and most of them said "sial ah, before army never cry for like so many years, go field camp then cry like baby". i wont tell why we cried or how was field camp, but u can always ask me when we meet up :p. lets just say, soldiers out there are not fighting for themselves but fighting for their loved ones.

i kinda lost a few kg along the way as well and also miss being the platoon and company IC. its fun to be an IC lar because i love to be upfront and tell ppl what to do! haha! but in all seriousness its a great responsibility. but if theres another opportunity again, i will gladly take it and do better. =D

i know most of you ppl reading this havent seen me for a long time. will update with pics soon enough.

sit test in 2 days. lets do this fiq!

"do it once. do it right."

of so near yet so far

so i booked out early cuz i passed my IPPT. haha. but the disappointing thing is that i didnt get a silver. but nonetheless ive improved alot. :D:D

IPPT 19/06/08
Sit-up: 40 5points
Chin-up: 5 1points
SBJ: 197cm 0points
Shuttle Run: 9.2s 5points
2.4Km: 12:46min 1point
total:12

17/07/08 points

Sit-up: 40 5points
Chin-up: 10 4points
SBJ: 216cm 2points
Shuttle Run: 9.3s 5points
2.4Km: 10:58min 4points
total: 20

we were discussing amongst ourselves about who to pace with etc etc, by what timing etc etc. a Sir overheard us and said "dont care timing, just run and give your best shot because your trainings will give u a surprise." so of course, i thought, ahh what the heck, they say those who pass can book out early (previously they say only those who got silver and above, but decided to give chance), so i just aim for a pass lar, which is just 12:20. and a bloody surprise it was. haha. 10.58 oh!

but like what the Sir said, i tried my best and i have never like the idea of running fast for 2.4km. it was a huge improvement, well, for me at least, since my best ever timing was 12min in my entire life. haha. it could be the red bull, which gave a very bad side effect. i was suuupppeerr tireeeeed after the whole run.

i guess what i should do now is to improve on my sbj. for 9.44mins timing for 2.4km, well, i'll let the trainings do their job. 2 more IPPTs. lets get the gold syafiq!

of tough times

tough times dont last.
tough men do.

ippt test this thursday.
i hope i can fly for my SBJ.
heh. silver. here i come.

of a desire to be among the best

ever since ive stepped into the army, i had a goal in mind.

to train my best, to be my best and of course be myself and strive to go to Officer Cadet School (OCS). OCS is a place where a few fit leaders will undergo a vigorous 9 months training and be commissioned as a Officer in the army.

and i wanna be one of those few fit leaders.

ive been running like a mad dog everyday and pushing myself to the limits but im sure theres always something that can be done better.

Determination and endurance play a big part. I was reading FHM(yes, FHM haha) in the bunk and saw a quote among the advertisement.

"The person to beat is not infront of you but the one inside you"

yes. im aiming for gold before my BMT is over. to be honest i dont know whether it is possible. because i have to run my 2.4km in less that 9.44mins to achieve the gold standard. nonetheless, i will always try my best. :D

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/IPPT_Gold_Award_Badge

im kinda worried about SBJ tho. a pathetic 197cm lar. but i believe, i can reach 234 by the end of bmt lar. :D

i believe my running can be improved because we run like mad dogs everyday and chinups, ive already improved from 5 to 8 in 2weeks. im aiming for 12! rawr!!

im talking as if i am enjoy the army. actually, i do. the friends ive made are a great bunch of ppl and im really glad i have them because they really motivate me.

but in all seriousness, i finally realised the importance of a goal in one's life because it really strives one to achieve it.

of entering a new phase in life

14/06/08. to be honest i've been excitedly waiting for this moment. altho i've heard bits and pieces of what's to come, im just gonna experience it my way and enter with my cup half-full. but before i go into my new phase of life, i think there are people in my life that needs to be acknowledged because they have made a major/minor impact for the past few years and made me a better boy (not man yet because still havent go in army! but that means i have to change my blog title >.>) (and yes farand, you kinda inspired me to do this)








Rugby, Red Wings RFC/Bedok Kings RFC.
the trainings/matches were just pure awesomeness. they really push my limits and brought a whole new level of physical demands. determination wins all. thanks guys, for allowing me to lead, to follow, to play till the death and jokes we all share.

Coach Lee.
i think i've mentioned you before but i wanna say thanks again. you really made me know the meaning of mentality winning everything and also we shouldnt wait for things to happen, we should WORK HARD for it.













Slackers from BBSS.
Jon, Garrick, Amelia, Chyetee, Pohseng, Aikhou and Liangyu and im sorry if i left out any. i know we have gone our separate ways now but im sure we all can meet up one day and have supper at al-ameen and play pool over and over again! gosh i was sick of the same routine but i guess i kinda miss it because you guys just rawk. and jon and garrick, would the two of you stop fucking arguing each time u guys are out together? :P













Ngee Ann Outward Bounders.
OB OIE!! if i didnt join this cca, i wouldnt be where i am now. the adventure, the outings, the trainings and everything else are so memorable. thru thick and thin, OB all the way!!! great friends, esp Rachel, Aifang, KK, Grace, Joe, Mirza, Derrick, Ying Jia, Ben and Rebecca.















NPOB 13th Comm. Khai, Ming Hui, Yew Ming, Farand, Wenting, Christina and Kelvin.
what can i say. even tho i was MIA for long while and im still sorry for that, you guys have been really great. from strangers to a small grp of people who have done a very good job at making NPOB progress. i really really miss those times, esp the yelling of asshole during asshole daidee, the jokes and our very short meetings =D love you guys deep deep!















Asia Outdoor Pte Ltd aka AO
this is where i say that i've been thru everything and be stronger because what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger. i've learnt alot from the other trainers and i mean by alooooot. from rah-rah, from how to really control your group, from how to make the grp like you, from how to motivate the grp, from how to be section IC and more. when i first step into AO, things that i thought i knew were just the icing on the cake and theres still so much to learn. many thanks guys, esp wenjie, andrew yong, jieyu, xinyi, farah, azie and pin wen, just to name a few who really helped me alot.

now for the individuals. DONT BE SHY WHEN U READ THIS OK! :D














Farand
a non blood-related bro who will always be there for me. yes yes, you've said it before but im saying this again. we barely knew each other back in our AGM and we really clicked together. you've done many great things for OB and for yourself and thus i respect you. should send me home again when u have the chance to again ah. haha! :D












Wei Quan
i know you dont like me calling you boss but i dont care, boss! haha. you're more than just a boss, you're also a great friend who will always talk crap and also say out many meaningful things and some really helped me in my work. i thank thee for the opportunities that u gave me because those opportunities really made me better man, err i mean boy =)













Loon Phern
this boy really really really is fucking lazy. but he got an A for his project. how? because he worked smart. i mean, really, he played games with me all the time and we will just slack and talk crap during project days but when it comes to work, he is really focused and thats what got him an A at the same time pangseh-ed me because i got a B+ only. but the point is, without him, that B+ could be an F because he really lived up to the name of "smoke grenade" whenever the reviewers ask questions. bro, all the best in your NS and love life man. haha! :D and THANKS FOR BEING MY PROJECT GRPMATE! :D













Eunice
i've known you for about a month? but i think u really deserved to be here because you really sort my thinking which was kinda... lost and confused. as fierce as u are, i know theres a soft side in you and just remember, if u can get angry, so can anyone :P so CHILL THE FUCKUP and laugh more ok? and thanks for being there when i need it.














Ying Jia
remember the crane i gave you? it represents loyalty and courage. 3 years down the road. it's long time yet it felt like as if i only knew u a days ago. i remember everything ever since we met, from our sports camp, DnD, OB trainings, photoshoot, msn convos, the day you left for china for holiday (and i think you never got me anything from there haha ) and many more. i dont know when i will ever see you again but just know that you should stay pretty and happy and always smile for the world to see. also, be confident la. once u start to fear, thats it. dont ever think about the fears in your life because it will make you weak. have confidence in yourself ok?

Once again, thank you guys/gals, for being a part of my life. Always a part, not apart. =)

no, this is not goodbye. in fact, this is just the beginning for me.
a phrase that i will always remember, "if you want to change people's life, you must change your life first"

ps: i dont care about spelling mistakes because its 2am already. omg army here i come
pps: if i missed out anybody, dont be too disheartened because im sure u have made an impact in other people's life.

of a song the describes it all

u know, i have alot of things to say

but then i heard a song and fell in love with it. (current blog song)

because it best decribes my life for now.

i feel better now.

after running away and ....

but, theres still something missing.

sigh..

of behind the scenes

of all the bravery, the courage, the professionalism, the determination, the sacrifices

not even one knows that he's a coward.

a coward that is fearful.
and when he fears, everything goes wrong.
but he wants a change. his patience has reached his limit.
down with one last breath, its now or never.

he knows the answer to it but he still has to do it.
like people say,
facing the music will change you
and jolly well he hopes it will.