fear

fear of a sportsman. injury.

i dont know. Ben could be right. it could be the way i run, as i run tip-toe. ive been trained as a sprinter since young, i guess its time to learn how to run long distance using my heels instead.

but its just so sad to get injured. i remember one time i was playing an important rugby match and i sprained my ankle really badly(because of a stupid hole in the middle of the field). i tried to knock it off and played on for the remaining 20mins, because we were winning, and being the captain, i believe i was needed to carry on motivating the rest of the team. we did win, but at a cost of me limping for two weeks. and it was not bloody worth it. look at me now, the fear just keeps coming back.

but i need to run. i need to shed off the extra kilos. i want to be fit.

sighhh. on a brighter note.

11dec07:84.2kg
11jan08: 82.4kg
23jan08:80.6kg

my target is 75kg asap, just to keep things really easy for now. been watching my diet and im happy with it.

and i wanna thank you(if you're reading this) for accompanying me when i wanted to knock the sprain off. i really appreciate it =)