of a different view

Overworked, he stepped out of the compound. He turned back and quickly look forward again. How determined he was to not do it again, he just can't stop turning back. He sighed heavily and remembered a good friend telling him not to do it just to keep out of their way.

"Is this what you want?" he asked himself rhetorically. The question kept repeating over and over again in his head on his way home. A loyal friend he was but sometimes when the emotions rule the heart, it rules the head.

of moving on

stop and stare
i think im moving but i go nowhere.

of mentality winning everything

Warning: Long post. read or skip, your choice.

The following is a translation from Park Ji-Sung's autobiography.

"I was sitting alone in an empty locker room, left leg injured. I need to prove my worth when the opportunity is given. I look at my leg, powerless, and wonder why I had to get hurt in this moment. Then, Coach Hiddink appears out of nowhere with an interpretor and speaks to me in English. Not understanding, I stare at the interpretor.

"He says you have great mentality. With that kind of mental strength, you will become a great player."

"I was shocked. Before I could murmur the easy 'thank you' in English, he was gone. My heart was pounding. The coach always seemed to be so far away, but he came to me and told me I have great mentality. Somewhere inside, energy was rousing up."

"... Mentality. I have nothing else to boast, but one thing I could do is to never give up. I will endure all hardships, even if I would die from it. And I will keep this mentality."

"... In the entire World Cup, I played with those words ringing in my ears. With my mentality, I can become a great player. I kicked the ball and ran around the field clinging on to those words. For better or for worse, I am calm and quiet, so not many people take notice of me. But I was sure that Coach Hiddink would be looking at me and urging me to move on. This gave me courage."

"If it was not for Coach Hiddink, I would not be where I am now."

"With the words 'where I am now,' I am not referring to me becoming famous or being able to purchase a spacious condo for my parents. I am referring to the fact that I learned to love myself more."

"Within a minute, what Coach Hiddink said to me changed my life forever. I feel a bit shy thinking about what he would think after reading this, but he is my 'master' and I owe him everything and I won't be able to repay it in my lifetime."

I remember during my rugby days when Coach Lee will always say that I have the potential to be a national player when I grow up. That would always drive me to work hard and play hard during trainings and I would want to say thank you even though you wont even get to see this.

You inspired me to be a better person: Confidence, Leadership and Mentality. Being the captain of a team that just started to know rugby for just a few months was such a heavy load on my shoulder but i could handle the pressure because i was trained like a mad dog during my secondary school days.

why i'm posting about this now and not the previous years is because during the recce in Kota Tinggi, my mind was fighting with the body. It was a bloody tough trek in my opinion and the 2nd day of it was too much since we had not recover from the 1st day of trekking yet. and then i realised that my rugby trainings were not wasted. I kept going and going, with my groin in pain and out of breath, i still kept going and going.

The guide told me: "Climbing a mountain is never easy. If it's easy, then it's not a mountain."

The best part of climbing a mountain is the summit's view. When i was up there, everything that i felt, the pain, the shortness of breath, were all gone. I was ecstatic by the view.

"TAKE PHOTO OMG TAKE PHOTO" were the usual claims. haha.

of this beautiful lady with a beautiful voice

i feel like im doing an advertorial but i dont care anyway heh.

marie digby. hawt babe man. haha.



very very nice talent for such a pretty face. her album is out soon too. listen to Miss Invisible and (oh i so love her in this vid) All Good Things(Come to an End) haha. my blog song at the moment!

heh. yes. whats wrong with posting about a hawt girl? RAWR.

why do all good things come to end...

of phenomenons

something phenomenal happened during my first day of camp in Kota Rainforest Resort.

















like joe said in the vid, its something like a rainbow but its not a rainbow. we could see colours of a rainbow but as we know, rainbows are not like that. colours were clustered and was not in order and yeah, i dont know what it was. lol

i still want my green/blue flash sunrise/sunset!

of what you need and want

i had a good talk with mum, or rather, she was talking to me and i was listening. heh. i guess its really time to save up for the future. ive always wanted to do it but i guess i really should start now. better now than never =)

so here is the list of what i want.

-oakley specs
-rooney man utd jersey
-wallet
-digital watch
-many many clothes
-levis jeans (because my black ones are really really bangy now haha)
-ps3
-new computer
-alot more lar

it actually all boils down to what i NEED.
-save up for the future.

i guess i dont really need them yet. im happy with what i have. i know, i know, temptation is very strong because im working right now but i guess i can always throw temptation out of the window.

for eg. my laptop, its still fine, altho abit outdated but i still can use it :D
my wallet, its like shit already but hey i still can use it.
my digital watch, the crown is gonna come out anytime soon i think but i still can use it
my specs, some part corroded, but hey, it still nice and im still wearing it.

i guess i dont really NEED anything now.
maybe when i win a million bucks..

YA RIGHT FUCKING DREAM ON FIQ. heh.

anyway i'll be away till friday. till then, take care and have a good night. (2am, and i have to wake up at 520, yay for pre camp insomnia!)

i wanted to type something but then i remember i posted it before.

pls refer to flashing by

but im glad

that im stronger, inside.

all i need now is to commit myself. which is what im always afraid of.

but why should i, i ask myself.
all i have to do is to make time, and if i dont have time, find time. =)

she's got me love stoned
man i swear she's bad and she knows
i think that she knows...