reflect

what is there to reflect?

i dont know. on the way back home from the camp, i decided to walk super slow after alighting the bus and walked a longer route, with music shutting my ears from everything. then i thought of how i could be a better man and instructor to these kids. mind you, taking care of 22 students is a heavy load on my shoulders and making them happy just adds on. to be prefectly honest, i love my job. it struck my mind during the Pelepah Waterfalls trekking(heavy heavy rain), that what im doing is what i love. i started looking left and right.

to the right, Joe, holding a tree trunk, helping the kids, knowing a mistake might cost him his life because he has little space to work with.
to the left, Andrew, my section IC who had to decide the fate of 100kids, knowing one wrong decision could cost many lives.
myself, informing the kids where to step on, one wrong step could lead to a slip and could hit their heads on a rock.
"ok right foot here, left foot there, right foot here again, ok good, well done well done, jiayou, (taps their hand)" how i wish i had a tape recorder lol and a lil bit of motivation works =)

yes. its not as easy as it seems, but im not scaring you guys too. have faith in yourself.

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you know. when i saw you on that day, in pain, i was really worried. no one knew how i felt, because i was the last man of the trek. but when people turn to look at me, they said "eh fiq why u suddenly emo". true fact i was not emo but i was really worried about you. also felt really damn fucking useless because there was nothing i could do to help. i asked the people around you whether u were ok. i was concerned and very worried. i told kelvin to take care of you because i couldnt leave my 'last man' position. still i felt really bad. when u cried, my heart just sank.

this is a late post. but somehow, keeping feelings to myself is not helping. it was great to see u smiling again the next day. =)

champions oie!

so. yes. i r back. like. who. cares. :D LONG POST INCOMING.

23rd and 24th feb. my 2nd AO training camp because i was, like i said, bored shitless out of my skull and needed to memorise the trekking route for the 27th-29th camp. always a different experience on a different day. like u know the route, which is good, but can be bad as well because u really want to be cautious because u know there is something bad somewhere.

back to the swimming pool, i decided to be a "little" bit "adventurous". did many dives - frontflip, backflip, spiderman, karate and many more la. i wish i have photos/videos now man. then we all started to push each other into the pool. RAWR took 5 people to bring me down and if anyone did bring me down, i will always bring someone with me. :D

26th-29th feb. Deyi Secondary Adventure Camp. the kids were great except for a handful, but hey, u cant expect everyone to be cooperative. it was an eye opener for me because it was the first time working with other AO instructors, so i dont really know their style. great bunch of people. many things to learn from them. the camp was really, to be honest, messy in terms of programmes, because the school decided to confirm everything last minute, so the instructors really have to crack their heads and think of something ON THE SPOT. remember OB's t-shirt quote?

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." -Martin Luther King Jr.

for clement and shujuan, you could prolly explain this quote on the very first day of training. link it with meaning of "Outward Bounders". just a suggestion =)

my point is, u can really see why they are instructors/leaders. im not saying i never do anything la. self praise is no praise =P

and i know, i know, my aunt serra wants to hear this
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im blacker now. :(

i'll continue later. =D

let war begin.

lol.

so basically my left buttcheck is in great pain right now. i have no idea why. but im gonna endure it for this camp. (27th-29th)

and its 535am.

and i love you all.

esp you.

SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rawrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

life

take care and take it easy =)

it = life. or anything that bothers you. smile u bastards. cmon. lol :D

possibilities

top-most pic: 21/10/05. top pic: 20/02/08 cam whore rawwwrr~ =P

19/02/08: went to NTU. spent like an hour in there just to submit apps which took only a min. lol. huge campus, but i dont know why i didnt rawr when i had the chance to in that open space. oh well. a great day spent with great people when im supposed to be studying. haha.

20/02/08: unofficially graduate. altho i am happy, but i know im gonna be bored shitless out of my skull because i have nothing to make me busy at the moment.

you know, you thought you've seen it all, but the possibilities in this world are endless.















whoever took the shot, i thank thee because its a great picture to look at. (because im there looking at the beautiful scenery and i think minghui & yingjia are in it too)

and....














the rare green sunset. it's time i look for one. anyone care to join me? =)

iris

as usual. i keep my feelings to myself.

but the song now best describes it.

nuff said and have a good night.

when everything is meant to be broken, i just want you to know who i am.

professionalism

i think everybody needs to have this in order to succeed at work.

professionalism.

i couldnt finish the last post as i had to leave for a movie with parents. but i was really damn disappointed. i was really really looking forward to work with the EDU guys again.

as my previous post stated, i dont think the word fuck suits the whole scenario. i know i have sacrificed a few things just to go for this camp but hey, shit happens. i really think i need to be professional about this (aka suck up and smile). lol. since im not involved in the 21-23feb camp, i have nothing to look forward to next week. one word sums it up.

sian.

anyways. just a few thoughts along the way to Marine Parade.

am i really a man of few words? thats the reason i blog i guess.
1) i know i dont talk alot with ppl around me.
2) i know i dont express myself well infront of ppl. i always keep feelings to myself.
3) i know i want to rawr because it makes me feel better.
4) i know blogging makes me feel sane.

i think i need to work on point 2. sigh.

kelvin recently asked me a personality question. give it a try.

if you're in an empty room all alone and you can wish for a box to accompany you, how big do you want the box to be?

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the bigger it is, the bigger your ego.

if i go crazy then will u still call me superman?