day by day, during trainings, i just wonder to myself.
what the hell am i doing here? why cant i just go home and enjoy my life simply? looking at those 8-5(normal working hours) NSF just really made me think that i could just give up and have 8-5 NS life for the rest of my service. its just some devil telling me to give up. something that whispers to the ear, something that makes you weak, something that makes you think of many ways to chaokeng and what more.
but importantly the mind has to be set the right way. its just the beginning actually. theres alot more to come to test one's will and i know im not the only one whos whining. time is actually flying fast but the fact that im not out there with my family and friends make me think that im losing them. i do miss civilian life.
i know i know. dont give up, endure, blahblahblahblahblahblah x 1000.
officer cadets are highly self-motivated ppl but these are just some soldier's whining believe it or not. soldiers that dont whine are not human. prolly they dont whine infront of you or they just dont want to show their feelings.
but i will always keep this in mind: "if one chooses to lead an easy life, one will never grow"
its good to be back home. section field camp next week.i really dont know what to expect but now its a good time to prepare myself mentally.
and friends out there reading this, lets hang out soon. =D but u plan la, u think i got time to plan meh? your head ah!
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