Since the last post, gosh, I've learnt and experienced way too many things. It ain't overwhelming, its just that I'm only 22. Maturing myself is something that I'm trying to accomplish and I do know sometimes I am childish, but hey, nothing wrong being a child at heart yeah? but of course, maturity goes a long, long, loooong way.
I've been down and been reflecting and I've learnt that life goes only one way.
Forward.
I've been hit hard by life. But there's really no point in dwelling. I keep telling myself to let it go, to move on, to go forward. It's difficult but I keep trying. Day by day, I try to keep myself busy and not think about the heartbreaking moments. Flight by flight, I try to find myself. Giving myself an early xmas gift. Canon G12. Picking up a new hobby(photography) along the way.
I want to believe that I moved on. There were some nights I would dream about her and I would wake up disappointed, but life has to go on again. I remember I asked a friend, "don't you feel lonely at times?"
He replied "I do, but I'm happy this way till I find the right person." I didn't knew what he meant, till now.
I realised I've been focusing my energy on the wrong things. well, ALL my energy. I guess work's more important now, to get back to my feet, increase my self-confidence and focus the right amount of energy in everything I do.
This maturing thing is getting to me, somehow, one way or another.
all is fair in love and war, and i'm back into it again. but i learnt my lessons now. like she said, "people change".
watch out world.