of inside of love

this is an old song, but old songs doesnt mean they die.

and no, I'm not emo. hah!

of a New Year part 2

but... I have no regrets, because no one should live with regrets.

Ever since the new year began, I've done so many thing I should have done last year. A medical checkup on my knee, which I am going through physiotherapy now, made an appointment for my Dental Checkup for my gum problems, met up with friends to catch up and get medication for my disgusting foot rot. Still, there are many more on the to-do-list, but hey, this is only the first month!

I got confused when I was planning for my future. I mean, really, there's so many things one can do. I wanted to fly, study, go back to playing sports competitively again, just to name a few. I even had trouble thinking of what new year's resolutions I should have.

I was searching for my notebook in my office and I stumbled upon a book which I decided to take a peek. And strangely enough, the page that I flipped to said this "First ask yourself this question, what do you want?" and it further explains that by asking this question alone solves the many questions in your head. I chuckled at my luck and I sat down in the cold office thinking of what I want.

And now I know. Sometimes we search for one thing but discover another. I'm still in the midst of writing down of what I want but at least I made the first move and I'm glad I did.

so, what do you want?

of a New Year part 1

Here it is again.

A brand new year.

I must say, 2009 was really full of ups and downs.

It tested my limits,
brought me to hell and back,
showed me who are I really love,
opened my eyes to who my true friends are,
gifted me the opportunity to learn and grow,
directed me a path to what is true leadership,
taught me that life should not be taken for granted,
enlightened me that the world is out there waiting for you,
presented that dreams are not all about reality but fears as well,
and made me believe that one can make a huge difference in a person's life.

What doesn't kill you will make you stronger. Fears are part of parcel of life. It is how we want to overcome them or just chicken out and let the fear ruin the mind. If we don't take calculated risks, we will never walk the talk and from there, we cannot walk the walk.

I'm half-smiling while I'm typing. Why? Because for 2009, I was always afraid. But this is 2010, where I know I must overcome the fears because if I don't try, I will never, ever, know. Man, I should be crowned the King of Procrastinators in 2009. There were so many things that I should have done but...