of that lonely christmas

I've got alot of things to say.

But this post is solely dedicated to Christmas.

So....

MERRY XMAS YO!

of leading by example

4am.

I'm tired yet I can't sleep. But I'm grateful as I'm taking this time to reflect on the past month. I do enjoy my work now, ironically because I hate desk-bound jobs. I have learned so much and this is what I would take away from my National Service.

Being an Officer isn't easy. Oh hell, who said it would be easy? But again, I'm not complaining. It just pushes me on fer greater things. On top of the pile of work, I still take some time off and people would think I'm not working. But I can't imagine myself working straight 7-8hours each day. I walk around, workout in the gym, talk to my men and whatever else to get work out of mind. One very important take away from this month would be taking care of the men under me. I can't just work and work and work and forget about my men.

I had some time to know them, to befriend them and to draw the line when I need to. And it's paying off thankfully. And strangely enough, they are the ones who motivate me to work. Respect is a mutual thing and it's damn hard to earn it.

"I answer for their training, morale and discipline." from the Officer's Creed.

Live by the Creed.

I'm not angry and I never will, just.. disappointed.

of anywhere but here

I remember the day back in OCS, when my buddy asked me this question:

"If you had any power, be it superhuman or from superheroes in the comics/movies, what would it be?"

I pondered for awhile, and answered, "The power to persuade to do anything I desire, the act of coercion". He nodded. "That's actually a personality question." Further on he probed another question,

What would be the Weakness of this power? - I wouldn't be able to do it on someone I love the most.

"So what does these questions mean?", I asked.

"You'll find out one day."

And strangely enough, that moment is still stuck in my head...

of essence of leadership

"A true leader has the confidence to stand alone, the courage to make tough decisions, and the compassion to listen to the needs of others. He does not set out to be a leader, but becomes one by the quality of his actions and the integrity of his intent. In the end, leaders are much like eagles...they don't flock, you find them one at a time."