of achievements

I opened my eyes, staring into the ceiling of my bedroom and suddenly, I had this feeling.

The feeling to go have a run. 8pm on my watch but I could not be bothered. I've always wanted to run again, after procrastinating time and time again. So I did it and felt so damn good after it. It was a short run, just 5km but the feel of accomplishment to do it, yes, to do it, felt so good.

I really need to start exercising again. Office work really glued me to my seat nowadays, with the never ending work with crazy deadlines.

I remember how my anger would get the best out of me. But I feel that I have full control of it now. I remember countless times when I lashed out at my friends, they never look the same way at me again. It's something that I've always been trying and I maybe I've achieved it.

Patience is a virtue, not anger...

of meeting you halfway

i can't go any further than this...
i want you so badly, it's my biggest wish...

of second chances

I really need a break from work. The endless meetings that I had to attend, the amounting problems each day I had to face. Not that I can't handle it, let me just call this, work rant. Hah.

I'm sure all of you have something to rant about. Thankfully there's friends and colleagues helping each other out, although some of them just to have the easy way out and don't bother about a single thing.

Firstly when I entered the officer as an officer, it was the "rank-barrier". Slowly but surely this rank barrier will be gone in no time but there's another barrier that I would need to face, the "friend-barrier". Of course, its harder to make someone to do a task if you're a friend. They'll do it eventually after a bit of influencing. That's what I'm trying to learn.

The art of persuading/influencing. heh.


Would you ever give someone a second chance?

I'm not too sure myself...

of camaraderie part 2

I know that winning isn't everything yet I still would want to win. I've been through many criticism, be it rugby, soccer, any sports or anything really. It's demoralising to be honest but something inside me tells me to improve, to prove them wrong, to show who I am. I'm driven, thats what I am.

We lost in the end, 2-4 in that Ultimate Frisbee match. After much criticism from the previous matches, we were driven to prove anyone wrong but yet, sometimes, things don't go your way. But like what Russell Swan said in my previous posts, "I won my kind of million dollars"

I really miss the camaraderie that I had in all of my team activities, from sports and from the outdoor lifestyle. The fellowships and the friendships forged will always be etched in my mind.

And I really hope I do have a chance to do something like this again. I've taken up individual sports as well, like Archery, Air Rifle and single events in sports day and I just don't feel the same sense of achievement, even if I will win the gold. I don't know, maybe it's just me.

Opinions?