life. its so goddamn political but actually, its pretty simple. PEOPLE make it complicated. thats why i decided to keep things simple from now on.
i have a recent colleague, who has been so lazy these few months and now he is an appointment holder, he expects us to do what he will reluctant to do if he is not an appointment holder. i mean, why oh why do u expect us to do it when you, in the first place, wont do it if ppl ask u to? so i decided to play a little bit of payback/revenge/being a bastard. i rejected what he asked me to do on purpose, but i decided to help out the guy who got arrowed on the SAME job instead.
i wanted him to feel the pain. i wanted him to feel the agony of every appointment holder that has been calling out for volunteers. i wanted him to feel it.
and then i realised, no fiq, this isnt the way. another colleague of mine, who knows about these situations, told me to stay neutral. we all should live life the right way by not taking anyone's side and just be yourself. we should treat people the same way you want them to treat you.
he got me thinking. and im pretty sure some of you will be thinking of the above sentence.
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i just had a recent presentation. it was to assess our presentation skills as an officer. so yeah. we could talk about anything in the world. took me awhile to get a subject to talk on and i decided to talk about computers.
what? computers? boring topic? geek sia? heh. what i learned is that the topic does not matter. the presenter MATTERS alot. if the presenter can arouse the audience in his topic, then he is successful.
of course, we were given critiques for our presentations. and i must say, i kinda improve alot of my presentation skills. i remember during my poly days when i would fear presentations, standing infront of the class and talk nonstop with the powerpoint slides behind me. i would stutter, i would read from the slides, i would have alot of fillers in my sentences, alot of pauses etc. my colleagues told me i did an excellent job during my presentation altho there were still areas of improvement.
i pretty sure that some of the readers here are afraid of presentation but really, it takes practice and dont be shy to rehearse by looking at the mirror. confidence. confidence. confidence. i cannot stress enough on confidence. dont let the fear control you. dont say that youre shy. because this is life.
and life is about taking chances. if you are shy, if you aint confident, then u aint going nowhere. if u dont try, you will never know.
somehow, just somehow, on the 15th of May, i woke up with the feeling that im a different person. different as in, i know that i have changed for the better. =)