let war begin.

lol.

so basically my left buttcheck is in great pain right now. i have no idea why. but im gonna endure it for this camp. (27th-29th)

and its 535am.

and i love you all.

esp you.

SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rawrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

life

take care and take it easy =)

it = life. or anything that bothers you. smile u bastards. cmon. lol :D

possibilities

top-most pic: 21/10/05. top pic: 20/02/08 cam whore rawwwrr~ =P

19/02/08: went to NTU. spent like an hour in there just to submit apps which took only a min. lol. huge campus, but i dont know why i didnt rawr when i had the chance to in that open space. oh well. a great day spent with great people when im supposed to be studying. haha.

20/02/08: unofficially graduate. altho i am happy, but i know im gonna be bored shitless out of my skull because i have nothing to make me busy at the moment.

you know, you thought you've seen it all, but the possibilities in this world are endless.















whoever took the shot, i thank thee because its a great picture to look at. (because im there looking at the beautiful scenery and i think minghui & yingjia are in it too)

and....














the rare green sunset. it's time i look for one. anyone care to join me? =)

iris

as usual. i keep my feelings to myself.

but the song now best describes it.

nuff said and have a good night.

when everything is meant to be broken, i just want you to know who i am.

professionalism

i think everybody needs to have this in order to succeed at work.

professionalism.

i couldnt finish the last post as i had to leave for a movie with parents. but i was really damn disappointed. i was really really looking forward to work with the EDU guys again.

as my previous post stated, i dont think the word fuck suits the whole scenario. i know i have sacrificed a few things just to go for this camp but hey, shit happens. i really think i need to be professional about this (aka suck up and smile). lol. since im not involved in the 21-23feb camp, i have nothing to look forward to next week. one word sums it up.

sian.

anyways. just a few thoughts along the way to Marine Parade.

am i really a man of few words? thats the reason i blog i guess.
1) i know i dont talk alot with ppl around me.
2) i know i dont express myself well infront of ppl. i always keep feelings to myself.
3) i know i want to rawr because it makes me feel better.
4) i know blogging makes me feel sane.

i think i need to work on point 2. sigh.

kelvin recently asked me a personality question. give it a try.

if you're in an empty room all alone and you can wish for a box to accompany you, how big do you want the box to be?

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the bigger it is, the bigger your ego.

if i go crazy then will u still call me superman?

gosh. it feels like i have been screwed.

started the day with a happy note, but now, wow. fuck is the best word to describe it.

i dont wanna end the day feeling like this.

but sometimes, i guess, u just gotta suck it up and move on.

family

what can i say. i love my family.














dad and mum.

i wanted dad to pose what he did earlier. mum asked him to guard her handbag while she goes food hunting and he immediately grabbed a knife and gave the serious face while looking left and right. lol it was hilarously funny but he refused to pose it, saying "being random is the best pose".

so mum tried to mimic it. :S















bro and I. always the same pose. haha.

the food was great. alot of choices la. jap to indo to chinese to western to italian to whatever country. i feel like im advertising for them already. lol. i just cherish the moments whenever we are out for dinner together. :D

i need to start studying. been out the whole week. oh well.

instead of spamming in my own tagboard, replies to tags here again.

jacq: what? what thing you?? :O:O:O:O:O:O:O

aifang: conference? why u love conferencing so much sia. is it because u like to talk alot? HAHA. >.>

midori: oh noes the naughty midori is here! /run

clem: i went to the mirror and tried doing it. and instead of rawring, i lmao-ed. :D and call me fiq. how rude.

yingjia: aww so sweet, rawr with me. but i bet ure gonna be shy, as usual!

look at the stars, look how they shine for you
and everything you do.

coldplay

RAAAAAWWWWRRRRR.

i wanted to scream but that would wake people up. i shall find a good spot one day to scream my lungs out.

so i tried to find a pic of myself "rawring" but all i see is smiles. next time i know what to pose already. so i found this pic. cute seh















the movie Time Machine actually made me realised something that i will always remember from tonight onwards. you can't make change the past but you can always change the future.

running away from the past wont change the fact that i end up running in circles. but i must say this tho, it brought my confidence level down so low, its hard to pick myself up. i guess its never too late to start now. hell, its NEVER TOO LATE to start anything. i kinda miss the old syafiq. the one who knows he has nothing to lose, do or die attitude and make people smile. =)

thanks to the people who tagged. im muchhh better now =)

clem&derrick: even tho i knew u guys for a few months, it feels like we have been friends for years, thanks =)

garrick: lol. SMILE SMILE SMILE. :D

farand: its rare to find u tagging. but thanks bro! :P

mirza: yeah man the world is there for us to explore, if we dont dare to try, we will never know. thanks dude!

aifang: you and your damn crows. u think u crowgirl ah, haha! thanks girl!

deep inside

wednesday, 6/2/08.

(4:10 PM) !ĐêŖЯĭcK!™ It is: you know the song that i had on my blog last week?
(4:10 PM) !ĐêŖЯĭcK!™ It is: breathless by shayne ward
(4:10 PM) - sarcazz. itch: that song
(4:10 PM) - sarcazz. itch: also send me
(4:10 PM) - sarcazz. itch: i emo already
(4:10 PM) - sarcazz. itch: fuck u all
(4:10 PM) - sarcazz. itch: lol
(4:11 PM) mirza...: wahhhh
(4:11 PM) mirza...: and yet you are the one who said you'll share
(4:11 PM) mirza...: hahaha
(4:11 PM) !ĐêŖЯĭcK!™ It is: relax man...

friday, 8/2/08.

to be honest, im still emo. i truly hate looking back. im still trying to get out of the hell hole. ironically, the genius of the hole: No matter how long u spend climbing out, you can still fall back down in an instant.

sigh.
fiqq.
wtf.
are.
you.
doing.










and watching The Time Machine now on tv isnt helping much. the girl he loves die, and he makes a time machine to bring her back, but she keeps dying. :(

nothing but experiences

not gonna post details about the training camp because i want the others who may read this to have a clear mindset of what to come during 23rd/24th. if you're really interested, TOO BAD. >.> but got photos la. from ben's phone cam which almost drowned.

























































































































































after reaching the base of the Pelepah Waterfalls after the River Tracing & Trekking, Ben, Yu Heng, Nino(the camp chief) and I decided to run back to the base campsite. it was already 7pm la so the 4 of us decided to run so that we could shower and makan first. the rest were smokers and didnt join us >.>

most of you know 7pm in Malaysia get really dark already, and the roads there had no lights at all. so we just kept running and running and running and running for quite some time, enduring the pain from blisters and stones in the shoes and not knowing exactly where the campsite will be. again, it was a new experience, and VERY FUN.

nothing much during the second day, low elements and Indiana Jones. man Indiana Jones alone leave me bruises, cuts, splinters and bicep and arm aches just because i wanted to hold on to my dear life lol.

i also realised something about this trip, that my passion for the outdoors is strong, just like my passion for sports. and when u do things that you are passionate about, it will be fun. no matter how tough it is, no matter the bruises and cuts u suffer, no matter the obstacles u face, no matter how much money you make, in the end you have fun.

alot of stars to see also. sadly no one else was interested and i couldnt part my knowledge. so i was star gazing alone :(
but i spotted the whole of Orion, Small Dipper with the north star. :D
gonna bring my notes of constellations next time because i keep forgetting.

for it is in my heart

yesterday night was really a sad night, for i am 'graduating' from this great CCA.
but im happy too, for i know that NPOB will achieve greater heights in the hands of the 15th comm.

OB OI.
OB OI.
OB OI.

memories will always be in my heart, for NPOB is in my heart. =)












and i have a flu now because of the last training and im going for an instructor training camp for Asia Outdoor tomorrow.

good luck to me. lol

just one of the them

its just one of the nights for me, when the body is so damn tired but the mind is still very much active.

and when the mind is very much active, i just wish someone would punch me straight to the face so i can stop thinking too much and just knockout and fall asleep.

do you know you cant suffocate yourself with a pillow? you will just fall unconscious.
do you know that yawning is very contagious? i just saw 5 consecutive yawns from 5 different ppl on the way home.
do you know when you think about sad things all the time, you will die faster?
do you know that breakfast is a very important meal of the day? your body tends to work better with breakfast.
do you know that breakfast is considered breakfast if you eat within 1.5hours AFTER you wake up?
do you notice that im always speechless sometimes? because there was nothing in my mind but you.

lol RANDOM right. this is why i said i hate it when the mind is so active at night. also, try this...

being happy doesn't make you smile, but smiling makes you happy. =)

so SMILE u emo bastards. =)

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