back at home. 31/12/2007.
slept for just 1h30mins in 42hours and somehow i cant sleep right now.
the assumptions made by myself are killing me.
why oh why?!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Monday, December 10, 2007
8
succumb to temptation
i shall not.
but sometimes its too strong for me
and have to start all over again.
which brings me to the point that one's discipline must be strong
i think mine is still, in fact, weak :(
i shall not.
but sometimes its too strong for me
and have to start all over again.
which brings me to the point that one's discipline must be strong
i think mine is still, in fact, weak :(
Sunday, December 2, 2007
motiva..what?
went out to get some fresh air and meet the guys who went for the Standard Chartered Marathon. /salute to them. grats guys/girls! kelvin wants me to run next year. -_-
since farand has always been by my side when i get injured during training etc, its was time for me to return the favour by accompanying him to buy slippers (he was bare footed from the Padang to Marina Square and walking reaaaaaaalllly slowly), but hey, an eye for an eye :p
anyway ive been drowning myself with music lately while reflecting and thinking alot. not sure why, but i think i have a better and clearer view of what im supposed to do. if u have read my previous posts, there was a dream that told me to "go for it" and to be honest, it has been bugging me alot lately. and a dream like this is not easy to forget yet its so hard to decode what the actual message is. so much for talking(or thinking in this case), i think i really need to get some action done.
and man, i need to find something to motivate me. or maybe i should just shut up and motivate myself. heh.
since farand has always been by my side when i get injured during training etc, its was time for me to return the favour by accompanying him to buy slippers (he was bare footed from the Padang to Marina Square and walking reaaaaaaalllly slowly), but hey, an eye for an eye :p
anyway ive been drowning myself with music lately while reflecting and thinking alot. not sure why, but i think i have a better and clearer view of what im supposed to do. if u have read my previous posts, there was a dream that told me to "go for it" and to be honest, it has been bugging me alot lately. and a dream like this is not easy to forget yet its so hard to decode what the actual message is. so much for talking(or thinking in this case), i think i really need to get some action done.
and man, i need to find something to motivate me. or maybe i should just shut up and motivate myself. heh.
Monday, November 26, 2007
last stretch
a friend from Australia linked me this. http://www.news.com.au/story/0,23599,22773710-13762,00.html
lol remind me never to yawn so hard next time. actually, there were times i yawned so hard that i had chest cramps. oh man the pain was so excruciating, it was like a bloody truck on top of me. :X
i thought my final year project is almost over if i hand in my final report this thursday with the final panel review next week. but nooooo, the supervisor actually wants us to go further, and by further she means she wants us to go to this competiton, competing with NUS, NTU and other polys (IVP? lol). and in order to do that, she wants us to work even harder to get results.
the good: there's a cert if my grp participates. it will matter when i apply for a job etc.
the bad: repeat the same tedious process that i have been doing for the past 8 months till the competition day. thats like in 2 months time?
the cert is tempting, but to be honest i need a break from all these project crap. u burn my sept holidays, and u want to burn my dec hols? all Loony could say "up to u fiq, i anything" luckily the supervisor didnt force, she just kept saying its up to us, and she's bringing this up because she knows we are capable of it and are hardworking(lol yaaa) decisions decisions oh decisions.
sigh. i want my holidays so i can go to OB camps tho :(
anyways, im sitting here at home like an idiot, blogging instead of doing my 200page report that needs to be handed in by thursday. i need motivation. like. now. omg.
lol remind me never to yawn so hard next time. actually, there were times i yawned so hard that i had chest cramps. oh man the pain was so excruciating, it was like a bloody truck on top of me. :X
i thought my final year project is almost over if i hand in my final report this thursday with the final panel review next week. but nooooo, the supervisor actually wants us to go further, and by further she means she wants us to go to this competiton, competing with NUS, NTU and other polys (IVP? lol). and in order to do that, she wants us to work even harder to get results.
the good: there's a cert if my grp participates. it will matter when i apply for a job etc.
the bad: repeat the same tedious process that i have been doing for the past 8 months till the competition day. thats like in 2 months time?
the cert is tempting, but to be honest i need a break from all these project crap. u burn my sept holidays, and u want to burn my dec hols? all Loony could say "up to u fiq, i anything" luckily the supervisor didnt force, she just kept saying its up to us, and she's bringing this up because she knows we are capable of it and are hardworking(lol yaaa) decisions decisions oh decisions.
sigh. i want my holidays so i can go to OB camps tho :(
anyways, im sitting here at home like an idiot, blogging instead of doing my 200page report that needs to be handed in by thursday. i need motivation. like. now. omg.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
dilemma
so many things to buy, yet i can choose only one at a time.
my dad's SIM card is M1, so he went to renew his plan and got a Nokia 6288. he gave this to my mum. the next day, he received a $200 handphone voucher from Starhub. since my mum is using a hi-card, he decided to get a subscription plan for her using the voucher.
so now under his name he has the Cable TV, internet and mobile plans. with 3 contracts under his name, one of the benefits is of course what Singaporeans love, FREE STUFFS. so my dad got an offer for a Free 20" HD Ready TV and a Hubstation(i still dont know wtf is this). cut things short, in singlish: free what, take lo.
so yaaay a new -small- tv :D. it just so happened that my bro and i were talking about buying a new HDTV or HD Ready TV to support game consoles such as Xbox360/PS3. so now, with the TV done, the dilemma is which to buy? Xbox360 or PS3?
let me add salt to the wound. i also want a new super computer which will cost me like $1500, altho i do plan to get this at a later time when i graduate and hopefully get some cash before NS.
and now we have another extra handphone in the house, Sony Ericsson W880i (using the $200 voucher). my dad's using a antique phone (lol) and refuses to change it because he doesnt want to relearn how to use a new phone. my bro and i are happy with our phones.
but im sooo tempted to use W880i because its kinda pretty, but whats stopping me is the keypad, as u can see its pretty small for my big fingers. :( thinking of selling W880i, but...... :/
opinions please :D
my dad's SIM card is M1, so he went to renew his plan and got a Nokia 6288. he gave this to my mum. the next day, he received a $200 handphone voucher from Starhub. since my mum is using a hi-card, he decided to get a subscription plan for her using the voucher.
so now under his name he has the Cable TV, internet and mobile plans. with 3 contracts under his name, one of the benefits is of course what Singaporeans love, FREE STUFFS. so my dad got an offer for a Free 20" HD Ready TV and a Hubstation(i still dont know wtf is this). cut things short, in singlish: free what, take lo.
so yaaay a new -small- tv :D. it just so happened that my bro and i were talking about buying a new HDTV or HD Ready TV to support game consoles such as Xbox360/PS3. so now, with the TV done, the dilemma is which to buy? Xbox360 or PS3?
let me add salt to the wound. i also want a new super computer which will cost me like $1500, altho i do plan to get this at a later time when i graduate and hopefully get some cash before NS.
and now we have another extra handphone in the house, Sony Ericsson W880i (using the $200 voucher). my dad's using a antique phone (lol) and refuses to change it because he doesnt want to relearn how to use a new phone. my bro and i are happy with our phones.
but im sooo tempted to use W880i because its kinda pretty, but whats stopping me is the keypad, as u can see its pretty small for my big fingers. :( thinking of selling W880i, but...... :/
opinions please :D
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
gone in 30seconds
so its practically 1230am now. last wed i kinda hurt my metatarsal* bone while jogging(why the fuck must something happen when i wanna go for a run). luckily thursday was deepavali, because i couldnt even make my left foot touch the floor :S
but u know, im stubborn. i went for rugby training on sat, pain or no pain, dont care >.> the guys wanted to play contact rugby(tackling etc) for abit after some basic training and runs, but mr feidzal said to play touch rugby. (something like playing catching but with some rules)
so yeah. since im a man of few words, i've decided to draw lol :D
blue: opponent
red: my team
green: me(oh i love green :D)
black: the ball
arrows from people: direction of flow
arrow from ball: where the ball is being passed to
so basically the opponent has been pushing us hard and reaching their try line(goal line).
one of the things that i love about rugby is intercepting a pass made by the opponent. as u can see, i was anticipating a pass to that guy on my left, so i decided to intercept it and got the ball instead. this is where the chaos begins :D (well sort of)
oh btw we were playing on a soccer field, so the 50m mark is actually the mid way point. so yeah i got the ball, and was sprinting down to the opponents try line as u can see on the diagram on the left.
as i turned my head left and right to see who is catching up to touch me(touching means i have to stop running and restart the game at where i was touched, which is bad because the opponents will be ready to defend).of course, i saw sooooo many people chasing me, so the stress factor is there.
i had 2 choices:
1) pass the ball
2) sprint as if a cheetah** is chasing me(dont laugh, :p)
i went for choice 2. greedy la u see. but at a split second while i was sprinting, the memory of me getting 2nd for 100m in pri 3 struck me. but soon after that all i could do is say oh shiiiit in my mind lol >.>
i'll let u imagine what happened in the end. because im tired and i have a presentation today so goodnight!
*metatarsal = wikipedia it :p solves most of your problems
**cheetah: true story, Bryan Habana(rugby player) sprinted with the cheetah, almost matching the speed of it. more on youtube if u are interested.
but u know, im stubborn. i went for rugby training on sat, pain or no pain, dont care >.> the guys wanted to play contact rugby(tackling etc) for abit after some basic training and runs, but mr feidzal said to play touch rugby. (something like playing catching but with some rules)
so yeah. since im a man of few words, i've decided to draw lol :D
blue: opponent
red: my team
green: me(oh i love green :D)
black: the ball
arrows from people: direction of flow
arrow from ball: where the ball is being passed to
so basically the opponent has been pushing us hard and reaching their try line(goal line).
one of the things that i love about rugby is intercepting a pass made by the opponent. as u can see, i was anticipating a pass to that guy on my left, so i decided to intercept it and got the ball instead. this is where the chaos begins :D (well sort of)
oh btw we were playing on a soccer field, so the 50m mark is actually the mid way point. so yeah i got the ball, and was sprinting down to the opponents try line as u can see on the diagram on the left.
as i turned my head left and right to see who is catching up to touch me(touching means i have to stop running and restart the game at where i was touched, which is bad because the opponents will be ready to defend).of course, i saw sooooo many people chasing me, so the stress factor is there.
i had 2 choices:
1) pass the ball
2) sprint as if a cheetah** is chasing me(dont laugh, :p)
i went for choice 2. greedy la u see. but at a split second while i was sprinting, the memory of me getting 2nd for 100m in pri 3 struck me. but soon after that all i could do is say oh shiiiit in my mind lol >.>
i'll let u imagine what happened in the end. because im tired and i have a presentation today so goodnight!
*metatarsal = wikipedia it :p solves most of your problems
**cheetah: true story, Bryan Habana(rugby player) sprinted with the cheetah, almost matching the speed of it. more on youtube if u are interested.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Monday, October 29, 2007
cats!
last time a cat wanted a piece of me was back at primary 1. no, it didnt make me fear of cats, but instead love them more lol >.> went to liza's house for jalan raye and her cat bite me, and all juli could do was to laugh at my misery. i have such good friends in this world! :D
i still love cats. <3
i still love cats. <3
Saturday, October 27, 2007
balance
balance
ive decided to have a balance in my life. easier said than done but im trying.
and i hope my habit of 'start something and never ending it" stops too.
sigh looking back and staring at photos doesnt help much
ive decided to have a balance in my life. easier said than done but im trying.
and i hope my habit of 'start something and never ending it" stops too.
sigh looking back and staring at photos doesnt help much
Friday, October 19, 2007
even the best fall down sometimes,
even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
new semester, new timetable.
4 MORE MONTHS(hopefully) to end of my poly life. its rather a mixed feelings fer me. happy because no more stress, sad because i will miss all my frands and i will definitely miss school life. so so so so so much fun i had fer the past 3 years.
1:25am. really tired but cant fall asleep.
and Howie Day - Collide is really a great song.
even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
new semester, new timetable.
4 MORE MONTHS(hopefully) to end of my poly life. its rather a mixed feelings fer me. happy because no more stress, sad because i will miss all my frands and i will definitely miss school life. so so so so so much fun i had fer the past 3 years.
1:25am. really tired but cant fall asleep.
and Howie Day - Collide is really a great song.
Friday, October 5, 2007
it's not over
i must say, i kinda appreciate not staying at home. god... the boredom :/
was eating dinner yesterday while my mum was talking to me about how notorious and hyper i was when i was 1yr-3yrs old. the story really never gets old. imagine yourself climbing on top of tables without anyone/anything to help you, pulling all the garments down in shopping malls, running around and cre8 havoc in relatives house, to name a few things before i embarrass myself :P she must have a hard time, and im really thankful fer her to tolerate such things.
nowadays i try to help her so that she can chill and relax, without worrying about me and my bro. hari raya's coming too, so need some shopping done omg.
was eating dinner yesterday while my mum was talking to me about how notorious and hyper i was when i was 1yr-3yrs old. the story really never gets old. imagine yourself climbing on top of tables without anyone/anything to help you, pulling all the garments down in shopping malls, running around and cre8 havoc in relatives house, to name a few things before i embarrass myself :P she must have a hard time, and im really thankful fer her to tolerate such things.
nowadays i try to help her so that she can chill and relax, without worrying about me and my bro. hari raya's coming too, so need some shopping done omg.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Mockingbird
one more week.
then my Vacation Project Program(VPP) is done. :D
got my results. kinda average. dont know whether can go Uni :/
i have this habit of starting something, and then there is no followup/end to it. this is really really bad. :/
then my Vacation Project Program(VPP) is done. :D
got my results. kinda average. dont know whether can go Uni :/
i have this habit of starting something, and then there is no followup/end to it. this is really really bad. :/
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
dreams
nothing beats blogging in a dark room with music streaming thru the headphones with no one bothering you.
anyway, u ppl by now should i know im always having strange dreams. i told joanne a few weeks back about it and she just laughed her ass off. but deep inside i know she's jealous, because all my dreams are action packed! :D man, imagine u wake up, not feeling fresh, but instead u feel reaaaaaaallly tired from all those action stunts. >.>
strange right! basket dont laugh at me!
anyways, someone told me to "go fer it" in this particular dream. this happened like a month back but it still bothers me because i know its meant for me to do something. maybe its the rose girl? hahaha dream on fiq.
went fer an industrial visit today at this beer brewing company. beers, stout, u name it. the tour was alright, with some unpleasant smell along the way. (processing of malt etc etc). after the short tour we went to the tavern. as expected, free drinks and refills! hmm, i'll just stop here just in case my mum visits my blog (oh hi there! :D)
man i just love Fuel - Shimmer. esp 0:00 - 1:01.
anyway, u ppl by now should i know im always having strange dreams. i told joanne a few weeks back about it and she just laughed her ass off. but deep inside i know she's jealous, because all my dreams are action packed! :D man, imagine u wake up, not feeling fresh, but instead u feel reaaaaaaallly tired from all those action stunts. >.>
strange right! basket dont laugh at me!
anyways, someone told me to "go fer it" in this particular dream. this happened like a month back but it still bothers me because i know its meant for me to do something. maybe its the rose girl? hahaha dream on fiq.
went fer an industrial visit today at this beer brewing company. beers, stout, u name it. the tour was alright, with some unpleasant smell along the way. (processing of malt etc etc). after the short tour we went to the tavern. as expected, free drinks and refills! hmm, i'll just stop here just in case my mum visits my blog (oh hi there! :D)
man i just love Fuel - Shimmer. esp 0:00 - 1:01.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
uncertainty
im not sure. u said both of us are moving on yet i feel that u are wrong. im not.
its hard fer me to move on without knowing what actually happen. its like telling me to jump off a building without a good reason. (not that i would jump off a building even if u gave me a million reasons do it)
justin timberlake - what goes around, comes around
i keep listening at 0:30 to 0:56. over and over again. hell, even the whole song makes sense.
i still keep your messages. the ones you sent me when i asked ya out fer new year's eve. i still do. deleting them would delete a part of me. even tho nothing serious happen between us, you were and still in my heart.
:(
its hard fer me to move on without knowing what actually happen. its like telling me to jump off a building without a good reason. (not that i would jump off a building even if u gave me a million reasons do it)
justin timberlake - what goes around, comes around
i keep listening at 0:30 to 0:56. over and over again. hell, even the whole song makes sense.
i still keep your messages. the ones you sent me when i asked ya out fer new year's eve. i still do. deleting them would delete a part of me. even tho nothing serious happen between us, you were and still in my heart.
:(
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
The Bourne Ultimatum
ever since i saw The Bourne Ultimatum's preview on TV, im really really excited whats next in this movie. of course with my "endless"(lol) free time, i decided to watch the 1st two, Identity and Supremecy again and cant fucking wait to watch the third. omg 16th august plz come fast :p
anyhow, happy birthday singapore :)
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
the noose
running from your past is like running in circles.
all this time, we got the fable of sleeping beauty wrong. the prince didnt kiss her to wake her up. no one who's slept for a hundred years is likely to wake up. it was the other way around. he kisses her to wake himself up from the nightmare that has brought him there.
I don't know about angels, but it's fear that gives men wings.
fear, is what i fear.
all this time, we got the fable of sleeping beauty wrong. the prince didnt kiss her to wake her up. no one who's slept for a hundred years is likely to wake up. it was the other way around. he kisses her to wake himself up from the nightmare that has brought him there.
I don't know about angels, but it's fear that gives men wings.
fear, is what i fear.
Friday, July 27, 2007
coincidence
man talk about coincidence
so my previous post was on wednesday morning before i headed to school. guess who i met in the bus on the way to school?
the girl who i gave the rose to! :D
really happy to see her did something(not gonna tell what!) when she knew i was gonna sit beside her.
so anyyyywaaaayy. report done 60pages. powerpoint presentation left. at least the hard part is done.
and of course, can i have more of what happened on wednesday please? thanks. :D
so my previous post was on wednesday morning before i headed to school. guess who i met in the bus on the way to school?
the girl who i gave the rose to! :D
really happy to see her did something(not gonna tell what!) when she knew i was gonna sit beside her.
so anyyyywaaaayy. report done 60pages. powerpoint presentation left. at least the hard part is done.
and of course, can i have more of what happened on wednesday please? thanks. :D
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
memories dont lie
so i went back to BBSS Rugby Alumni's training last Saturday. altho a handful turned up, we played a game. my stamina was like nowhere to be seen la >.> and i kinda forget a few tricks and even mr feidzal yell "hey syafiq! all these years what happened to you man!"
>.<
to be honest, i kinda miss playing the sport that i love most. alot of fond and bad memories which we brought up during our talk cock session after the game. Edward, Alex, Emmanuel, Amirul, Edward, Jon Lee, me, and Mr Feidzal. (i still call him Mister because i still respect him :D) but really, we talked about rugby and about everything we can think of. i kinda miss the old secondary school days too, where the fun never stops. :(
modeled abit fer jon's photography thingy. not easy to be model k. and jon took my most embarrassing shot grrrr.
went to my cousin's wedding banquet. awesome food awesome company awesome photo taking sessions. as i sat by my table eating my awesome chicken(i made myself hungry here while typing this), i saw this particular rose on the table. the stalk's length was about the width of my palm and suddenly someone came to my mind. that particular someone was the first girl that i have ever given a rose to. usually she wouldnt just flash by my mind, but it was the stalk's length, therefore the length of the rose reminded me of her.
i still remember that night when i gave the rose to her. desmond toh and i wanted to give a rose to our dates. so he bought two, had the florist to cut the stalk cuz it was tooo long to carry it everywhere. so i kept both in my blazer(lol ya blazer, Dinner and Dance night :p). the attempt to hide it from everyone obviously failed and everybody started to ask questions. haha i just painly blushed and ignored them. (to cut the story really short) i gave it to her. (really short) ok :D this was, 2 years ago. i still have photos of the event in my laptop. fun memories. oh btw no one knew who i gave the rose to :D
been doing my project report lately. 40pages so far. half of it consists of tables which i fucking hate the most cuz i hate arranging them in Microsoft Words. one shift and everything's a mess. spent 3 days trying to arrange the damn tables and i manage to get them right. NEVER EVER touching them again till next year fer my final report.
>.<
to be honest, i kinda miss playing the sport that i love most. alot of fond and bad memories which we brought up during our talk cock session after the game. Edward, Alex, Emmanuel, Amirul, Edward, Jon Lee, me, and Mr Feidzal. (i still call him Mister because i still respect him :D) but really, we talked about rugby and about everything we can think of. i kinda miss the old secondary school days too, where the fun never stops. :(
modeled abit fer jon's photography thingy. not easy to be model k. and jon took my most embarrassing shot grrrr.
went to my cousin's wedding banquet. awesome food awesome company awesome photo taking sessions. as i sat by my table eating my awesome chicken(i made myself hungry here while typing this), i saw this particular rose on the table. the stalk's length was about the width of my palm and suddenly someone came to my mind. that particular someone was the first girl that i have ever given a rose to. usually she wouldnt just flash by my mind, but it was the stalk's length, therefore the length of the rose reminded me of her.
i still remember that night when i gave the rose to her. desmond toh and i wanted to give a rose to our dates. so he bought two, had the florist to cut the stalk cuz it was tooo long to carry it everywhere. so i kept both in my blazer(lol ya blazer, Dinner and Dance night :p). the attempt to hide it from everyone obviously failed and everybody started to ask questions. haha i just painly blushed and ignored them. (to cut the story really short) i gave it to her. (really short) ok :D this was, 2 years ago. i still have photos of the event in my laptop. fun memories. oh btw no one knew who i gave the rose to :D
been doing my project report lately. 40pages so far. half of it consists of tables which i fucking hate the most cuz i hate arranging them in Microsoft Words. one shift and everything's a mess. spent 3 days trying to arrange the damn tables and i manage to get them right. NEVER EVER touching them again till next year fer my final report.
Monday, July 16, 2007
flashing by
The trouble of wanting something is the fear of losing it
or never getting it.
the thought makes me weak...
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or never getting it.
the thought makes me weak...
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
different blog site, same ol' me
so, since blog-city decided to fuck up their free services, i decided to shift here before its too late. thanks to amelia, stickam is available =p. songs to hear, or u mute it if u think its irritating.
anyhoooo.. welcome! =D
anyhoooo.. welcome! =D
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